Here is an overview on what the Lord impressed in my heart to share as the days counted down for me to go and step out on this journey! To Him be all the Glory!
* 10 days until departure* You become so thankful for your everyday things that soon I won’t be able to see in my day to day life. You realize just how beautiful your laundry room is, or how much you will miss your toilet (because everyone knows that your own toilet at home is always 10x more comfortable…). The missing people has already had it’s full effect happening. If anyone knows how goodbyes can be more of the “good” part and less of the “bye” part, let me know! 😉 There is a lot of emotions,thankfulness, realizations, that take place when moving and taking a big step. Yet I am SO excited and ready for this journey the Lord is leading me on! 🙂
*9 days until heading out* Excitement, wondering, anticipating, and goodbyes. All can either be expressed in an unglody, unhealthy way (yeah even excitement), or in a Godly, healthy way. Thankful that yes,even though when goodbyes and see you laters are tough, my Jesus is what I stand fast in! I am so excited for all He has planned, and thankful for each person of support He has placed in my life! So then goodbyes can be “I’m SO excited for you!” “I am praying for you!” “God is gonna do so much!”. “Watch stand fast in the faith, be brave, be strong. Let all that you do be done in love.” – 1cor. 16:13
*8 days before hitting the road* I don’t like making a big deal our of things or making things dramatic, but I do like savoring every second that the Lord has given! We all have a story written out by Him! It is a fun up and down twisty journey, but with Him it is a best seller like my mom says! 🙂
*One week away* Counting down has it’s plus and minuses, it really ramps you up in excitement, anticipation, and joy! Yet it can also allow worry, stress and anxiety to creep in. How amazing is it that we have a God who speaks to us, hears us, and NEVER leaves us. He is my solid ground. As often as I have written about trusting the Lord in this, and all the GREAT things Has done, His promises, and the excitement in this. I am still human… Sometimes I even feel like a failure of a human. I give into stress, I don’t trust God at all sometimes, and I worry and let the enemies lies effect me to the point of being emotionally exhausted, confused, and physically sick. I feel like being a little more transparent tonight. I don’t live in a perfect life that here on Facebook it paints sometimes. The truth is, I am human. Saved by the One who paid it all. I falter in trust in the One. Yet He still rescues me… and saves me. Shows me that I am not horrible, reminds me who I am in Him. There is never a time that I don’t come running back to Him! Say that I am sorry for letting my eyes not stay fixed on Him and what He has said. He brings me right back to the Truth, where I was, and where I belong. He’s amazing like that. This journey is going to be absolutely amazing!!! Yes, it’s going to have its tough times… but look who is leading me???!! I LOVE being on this adventure already and Him leading me to new places! He never fails! And when I am weak He is strong! His word says it over and over! And you can take that to the bank!
*6 days left at home* It’s days like this where we just have to dig and holdfast to the trust that we have in our God. Sometimes He doesn’t give us the answers we feel we need to find peace, because we simply need to find it in Him. Trusting He will provide, take care, and keep. All we simply need is to be in Him. When stuff feels shaken it always goes back to that simple, truthful, solid ground. Jesus.
*Count down reads 5 days* Today turned into a praiseworthy day!! Some major prayer requests and important things that I honestly was loosing hope on was answered. All I know is that I was reminded that the peace isn’t found in the answer we are praying about, or the prayer request we need a answer to… but thee Answerer Himself. He brings peace. He brings the answers. Also reminded that it all goes back to simply seeking first Him. When we focus solely on God- He works in wonders. This verse is true… He blows our mind, and His answer is usually 10x better than our made up one in our head. He gave me this verse and it has remained a steady rock and go-to thus far on this journey: ” But seek first the Kingdom of God and His Righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you!”- Matthew 6:33
*We hop in the car in quarto days* Prayer. Let me tell you. Prayer and lots and lots of it in this decision. I am not sure how long I will be in Redding, or even all that God has for me as I go. I am willing to trust His timing to the best of my ability. So thankful for all the prayer and support I have gotten in this. So thankful beyond all get out for my parents. From even before I was born praying for God’s will upon my life. They have prayed me through all the way up to this point. Some things they taught were hard, but the fruit produced was far greater. They have encouraged me to trust God and go on this adventure, yet say I always have home. Nothing I do no matter how long or how short is a failure. They constantly remind me to let guilt, shame, and fear go and fix my eyes on Jesus. So thankful for all the other people who have also supported me. Family, friends, (some friends I could consider family! ;)) and even some people I have yet to meet!!! Last but MOST important… I am thankful for God who is the One we pray to, the One who protects, equips, and cares so deeply for each one of His children. I am SO thankful that this isn’t just my god, or my religion that I am following… but I am following THEE one true God.
*3,2,1 blast off!!* (or so it seems!) I am 1005 convinced you can’t be fully ready for any huge step until you actually take it. My God has been preparing me though. He is checking off all that needs to be done. Sometimes I get stressed about all that i want done, or what needs to get done, but really when we surrender to God… let Him lead these last days home, He checks off all that needs to be checked off!! Still amazes me how are God is so real. He so cares and takes care… His checklist may look different then mine. But I know it is worth it to be surrendered to!:) AND I LOVE MY MOM!!!!!!
*2 days and we are off!* These last days seem super long, then super short, and jammed packed all in one somehow. I realized though, when we are following and seeking God, He never fails to keep us… And never fails to stop showing up. Emotions and feelings may be kinda crazy right now. But I have a God who brings Peace and chaos back into order. I am so thankful to be following Jesus, and for my parents to be following Jesus by letting me go! I am gonna be honest- it ant’t easy all the time. But it is SO worth it. This is savoring time with my family. I have always appreciated them and loved them deeply… but this enhanced it by 1 million how much they mean to me and how much I love them and miss them. I know it is going to be different! But God will only make our relationship stronger and better through it! There is no distance in the Spirit! He is remaining with us all!
*1 day we go* I am gonna start with praise… And end with praise! Because i have learned a lot of the time i make my worries, fears, and sadness known first when I go before God.( and my close family) so i am first gonna say… THANKYOU JESUS for EACH one of these people!!!! I am so blessed with the best family ever! I am gonna miss waking up and hearing my dad leave for work early, being able to talk to my mom in person whenever i need to, or play with my brother and have him give me information after information about animals and legos. It is going to be quite the adjustment. But man, am i thankful for their encouragement, support, and love!! All in it for Jesus!
*0 reads the clock!* Well today is thee day we have been counting down for! We head off on this epic journey!! Feeling many things right now, but this one thing I am certain of, or more… this one Person I am certain of! Jesus Christ will be with me wherever I go! He is my guide and leads and directs us all!! All e gotta do is allow Him, and be willing to walk with Him!
– ” but seek first the Kingdom of God and His Righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.”- Matthew 6:33
– ” Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”-Joshua 1:9